Monday, January 31, 2011

Pillow Talk, Volume one

So when either of us (or both of us) are sleepy, we have the most bucket- worthy conversations you can imagine. One or the other of us will out with some spew-worthy gem the likes of which would turn your stomach with the cute-ness. Last night was Tom_Kitten's turn.

Future installments to come!


Me; "you have the cutest dimples!"
Her; (Indignantly) " I do not have dimples. I have dents."
Me; "Well, my extreme apologies- you have the worlds cutest "dents"."
Her; "I got the dents when all the happiness ran into me"

Thursday, January 27, 2011

And so I chose to live my life by the sea and sand...

But more wonderful than the lore of old men and the lore of books is the secret lore of ocean.
H. P. Lovecraft

Am back home from a couple of days spent down the coast. My girlfriend Tom and I disappeared to give my recently ex husband the house and some privacy, as he had his new girlthing over for the first overnight stay. She was still here when we got home, and was apparently quite nervous about meeting me- can't imagine why!

But- any excuse to get me to the ocean, so we took off in the new shitebox (I totaled my car in late November/early December, in the same week that Sean and I split- the two events were totally unrelated!)- its a '96 Magna that I bought for less then two grand- but it seems to be serving it's purpose well for now. I plan to accentuate it in grand fashion thusly;
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Awoke on Australia day morning to the sound of Tom's alarm going off at 4:15 am- because she had forgotten once again to turn off her work alarm on her day off. So I decided since I was now awake, so could she be. Spent the world's most perfect morning, sitting with our toes buried in the sand, snuggling with a coffee while watching the sun rise in the sky on a perfect Gold Coast morning. The perfection of the moment impacted so heavily with us that we made a big, possibly life-changing decision on the spot; When we get ourselves sorted out to move, we're leaving Brisbane and moving down the coast.

We are currently in a lease with my now ex until October. It might be possible to move before then in a break lease situation if new tenants can be found. But we've booked a holiday in Sydney for Mardi Gras in March, so the general plan is to do that and then start saving for a bond and for the moving costs after the Sydney trip. Once we can swing it financially, we will approach the current rental agents about finding someone new to take over. There are plenty of vacancies on the coast- it's a bit of a renters market at the moment- and with a good history/references, and the cash to move with finding the new place should be easy enough.

I'm stupendously excited.

Just as the wave cannot exist for itself, but is ever a part of the heaving surface of the ocean, so must I never live my life for itself, but always in the experience which is going on around me.
Albert Schweitzer

To compromise or not to compromise? That is the question!

What's your deepest, darkest fear? Have you tried to overcome it?




For as long as I can remember, it has always been the same;

That I am not enough.

And I have tried getting around it- always attempting to be better, but have recently re-acquainted myself with the fact that if I change, it has to be for personal growth and at my own incentive.

Forcing myself to change because others wish me to be different is a temporary fix to a bigger problem. Compromise has to come from both ends of the stick if you are to meet in the middle. If only one person is adjusting their outlook, that is not compromise;

it is surrender.

I'm taking back my white flag. Maybe I'll tye- dye it!